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Inspired by "Cyberbully"

Did you know that while I was sleeping I told my mom I was being bullied by my "best friends"? Yeah, I was keeping all this anger, fear and sadness inside and I didn't want to tell her because I didn't want her to know that she was right. And if you are wondering why I even remember this is because bullying has really become a common topic everywhere. I watched the movie"Cyberbully" and it reminded me so much of what I experienced. It breaks my heart every time I watch the news and I hear about young girls and boys as young as 9 committing suicide because they were being harassed at school by other kids. I know the feeling, I have been there and I can as crazy as it sounds understand why the first thing that comes to mind is to die. You just feel trapped in a dark room and  everyone is just looking down at you and pointing fingers; it's a nightmare! And just like in the movie, don't look too far because many times is the people we refer to as "friends" the ones that are hurting us the most. Unfortunately, when I care about a person I tend to tell them personal things. There are a lot of things I experienced as a child and growing up that I felt I should share. And those people I considered friends used that against me to bully me later on. I tried everything I went to the police, changed all my passwords and got a new Facebook and even new e-mail address. But they slipped a letter under my door and even made fake pages to follow my blog and my Facebook. And it was hard to get away and without my family, my new friends, and God...I don't think that I would've made it out. And I'm forever grateful for all those people (even the strangers) that told me I was so much better and that I could do it and they were right. I want people to know that we can push forward and that those people that bully us are just showing how sad their lives really are. They have low self-esteem and they need to put other people down to feel better about themselves. I can't control their actions and they'll have to deal with the consequences. But I can control what I do and what I don't and I don't need to hurt them to feel better about myself because I'm so much better and so much more than that.


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